What Now?

by Michalee Merritt

I am sitting here on a cold Monday morning staring at my computer screen thinking, What Now?

I am trying to think about happy things, positive things. I do have a lot of good going on in my house. My daughter is getting married, so there is a wedding to plan. My older son has an amazing girlfriend and he is happy in college. My younger son just signed to play college baseball. We have a great support system with friends and family. But I keep going back to, What Now?

What do I do with all this other stuff? 

I am trying to turn all the different emotions into good. Going out in my community and supporting the Jewish organizations by donating my time and funds when I can. I find being present in synagogue is more comforting. I shop for Israeli products at the kosher grocery store. 

I turn to Chai Mitzvah and gather my friends to share from our curricula. We read, we talk and share how important our Judaism is to all of us. That is What I am doing Now!